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morgans vlogs
morgans vlogs 9 days ago
I love you 🖤 even if you don’t feel loved remember that you are and life always works out for the best
Cat Feathers
Cat Feathers Day ago
@Sasha Gold hang in there beautiful. Life will get better, my stranger-friend.
Cat Feathers
Cat Feathers Day ago
@Jennii Caroline right?! And she is PAYING for this abuse? That is some bullshit right there. That asshole needs some humanity training.
SLE smiles
SLE smiles 3 days ago
I’m praying for you Morgan! The past year and a half has been extremely rough, so know that you are not alone. We are all scrambling to find ways of filling the holes in our lives. You have such a beautiful spirit and I hope you connect with what will truly fill your life with love , peace and joy. For me, it’s been knowing that Jesus loves me and is with me every single day. He has erased my overbearing sense of emptiness and continues to give me purpose in life. I’m not telling you what to believe, but I’m sure He can help you if you ask Him to. Sending you All the hugs and love in this world ❤️❤️❤️ Things will get better!!!
Valerie Rainbows
Valerie Rainbows 3 days ago
@morgans vlogs I know how you feel, and you are not alone. You seemed so much happier when you were with your parents, and sweet grandma. Big hugs you can do it. And that lady was rude for sure at your class. ❤️
Kali MacKinnon
Kali MacKinnon 4 days ago
Julia W
Julia W 50 minutes ago
“We simply have no other option than to figure it out, so here I am figuring it out. I hope you’re figuring it out, too.” As someone whose life has been completely flipped upside down in the last year, this is so real. Here’s to everyone struggling and figuring it out rn 💓
Viviene Coello
Viviene Coello 3 hours ago
I loved your fashion show! I wanna see more of that!
Viviene Coello
Viviene Coello 3 hours ago
I foresee Morgan getting into Yale, moving, and getting into great things! I love you Morgan! 🥰
Georgia 5 hours ago
Aw this made me cry😢 I'm sorry you're going through this it sucks. Thank you for being so honest and showing the not so "seen" side of mental health. I feel like I'm in a similar place to you and it helps me feel less alone watching a video that I can deeply relate to. Good luck on your journey x
JennaBinx 13 hours ago
We love you Morgan. Stay strong girl!❤💜❤💜❤💜
This is not the Droid your looking for
Are you still friends with Trinity?
Lacey Minogue
Lacey Minogue 14 hours ago
You seem like such a genuine, caring person. Im happy to hear you are doing better compared to before. Hang in there. You are beautiful and deserve nothing but all the happiness :)
This is not the Droid your looking for
You need to move to Colorado!!! Your mental health needs it!
Kaitlan 19 hours ago
Why do you live alone if you don’t like living alone? Why not find roommates?
Claire Taylor
Claire Taylor 19 hours ago
Morgan you are so strong. You are such a beautiful person, and you radiate so much positivity in this world, you're too good for LA
Jenna P
Jenna P 20 hours ago
Okay but like....red is your color
Lina Kos
Lina Kos 20 hours ago
Dear Morgan! You are the most relatable person on this platform. Thank you for helping me relate to you on a personal level. I too had that horrible day on sunday where after that i fell ill with the flu bc i just wasn’t taking care of myself bc of stress, struggling with my too low of a weight to fill out any jean and i just wanna say.. i know it might be hard for you but yt is a big enough platform that you don’t need ig. I deleted it last year march and it really helped with me not comparing myself to anyone but embrace myself as crazy as i am and people tend to vibrate more to me. I made so many new friends and acquaintances that when i have those good days and i find the right outfit i light up places and then universe is just like look at her go. I know you can find your happiness and it’s just around the corner. Just find a way to see yourself as all of our friends because i bet that every girl and boy relating to this.. we could have a smores camping night in cabins and have a lit sleepover and just be human for a moment. So if you’re reading this ever, know that you are loved, supported and cherished. Even when you feel like you’re not. And remember kids, you’re 20% more attractive than you think you are! ❤️
Frida Genberg
Frida Genberg 21 hour ago
I LOVE how real you are ❤️ You are amazing, hope you feel better ❤️ My friends left me because I have big dreams and I moved 1 hour car ride away with my (first ever) boyfriend and all of them are single. I just felt like if they can't be happy for me and supportive, I'd rather have no friends. Yeah it's sooo hard making new friends especially in a new city where you don't know anyone but you should never have friends that are not supportice and happy for you. ❤️
Breanna Jordan
Breanna Jordan 23 hours ago
I love you ❤️
smile011 Day ago
What you're going through is very familiar to me as well and many people go through. This is a void in our lives only God alone can fill. I recommend you to read a book "The Purpose Driven Life" by Rick Warren. Blessings and be safe!
Krissy Enchanted
Thank you for making this video, it helps me so much because I am going through something very similar
hazki Day ago
Girl stop apologizing for being human! This is the 1st video I've ever watched from you and I've subscribed Because you're so relatable! I really hope it gets better for you!
K Jayanth
K Jayanth Day ago
Nice video keep it up make more related videos
Trevor N
Trevor N Day ago
I love you so much Morgan. I wish I was a close friend aghhhhh you deserve to be happy! You have such a loving family, and friends you need look at that more. We ALL love you girly, why you think we always come back and to continue supporting you. ALSO YOU HOT AFFFF BBIITTTCCCCHHHHHHHH LOVE YAAAAAA SIS ❣️🥰
Vanessa V
Vanessa V Day ago
Morgan dear. You’re depressed. You need to find yourself a good doctor and the right meds. 🥺💕💜🧡
Vanessa V
Vanessa V Day ago
Ahhh you Said no to the sunglasses that really suited you 😶
Vanessa V
Vanessa V Day ago
Morgan you don’t have to give away stuff to gain happiness. I really Wanna give you a covid Safe hug Right now 🥺
Vanessa V
Vanessa V Day ago
Morgan you could actually step up your therapy game - go 2-3 times a week. As in depth therapy. Maybe moving in with someone else would be good for you too. 🙏 you got this!! And honestly even if you don’t - that’s ok. You don’t have to be fine. You can feel all the feels and still be a great person. You’re actually growing right now - your soul - your self awareness - you re all growing. This is your path to becoming you. The real you. And I’m grateful you’re being so open and vulnerable about it. 💜
Blue Day ago
I think holding on to things good or bad is normal. I think a lot of people are going through it right now. Some days I turn in the worst version of my school work ever and some other days I act out and stay in bed and end up calling myself a garbage human. I have no clue what’s happening lol, I’m just here.
Eszra Falcontail
I get it and I feel for her but.....when people replace the word GOD with the word "universe" 🙄. The universe was created by a consciousness...this was God. Some people just get to manipulated by all this new age "the secret" stuff that doesnt have room for mistakes, pain or any form of negative outburst which is just human. We are loved anyway and we get a new chance every second of the day. Also: get out of LA
Diana Marlene Lemus Figueroa
I swear you are so freaking beautiful like I can g even and I feel every single word you said it gets very hard at times and it's true you never know what someone else is carrying but you also have to prioritize YOU it's hard but not impossible my lovely ❤️
Saud Alsanad
Saud Alsanad Day ago
I freakin love u
my REAL big family
No actually you put those on and you get like 12 points hotter js
Katie Altieri
I absolutely love how vulnerable you get and you don't show the "perfect life" You are so real! I hate that you have to deal with mental health struggles but you are so inspiring and make me feel better when I'm going through similar issues
NS Day ago
girl I relate to this so much. depression is so hard.
Madeleine Kokiri
I have some advice that honestly has helped me learn to love myself.. when I never did before. Whenever you catch yourself making even the tiniest self deprecating comment, say out loud "No. I am not ___." Maybe replace it with something like "I'm just being silly. I'm having an off day. & It's okay." Even if you don't believe it at that moment, rewiring what you say out loud about yourself to be more positive (or even just less critical) truly helps, even if it takes a long time. It's OK. One step at a time. 💕 I'm here for you, I love all of your work. Thank you for being you.
Madeleine Kokiri
Hello angel. 💕 I just want to say that I am going through the same painful transition, && I promise it gets better.. I am just holding out for a few more months, I know things will change.. I am proud of you, you are not alone. 🌹 Thank you for helping me feel less misunderstood, too. Much love. 💜
KristaLee Raffaelli
Maybe you should write a book!
KristaLee Raffaelli
I wanna be your friend!
KristaLee Raffaelli
Also Morgan. You're fucking normal okay. Idk if you know that but you're beyond normal. You're exquisite most humans are fucking unconscious (not self aware AT ALLL) dumb asses! You're self aware and smart and I just wish I could make you feel more confident in yourself cause you're a star
KristaLee Raffaelli
You're a beauty.. your sensitive soul radiates good vibes much farther than you think you could imagine! And this inspires me, how brave to just put your shit out there, I'm glad you have!
U should move from La....ur not that bishhhh anymores yano
I wish I could give u a hug!!!!! I love u!! Ur great and I wish I had a friend like u lol...not creepy at all! 🤪😝🤗🙌
Ruth Torres
Ruth Torres Day ago
I just want you to know I’ve felt exactly what your going through several times and I’m only 26. But good times are coming! Your energy is beautiful and will attract good people around you! 💖
PeachyJacky Day ago
Your a very sweet, kind hearted, humble person Morgan, It breaks my heart when I hear you trying ur very best to push urself to appreciate life everyday and find purpose within urself. All I can say is that what if, just my personal opinion, the emptiness u feel in ur heart and soul, or the missing piece within you is Jesus. I know other people will say other things, but just think about it, It’s not a coincidence that Every single person knows the name of Jesus weather they believe in him or not, I mean, even you say out of ur own mouth God this or God that, he’s there, patiently waiting for you to open ur heart to him 🤲 💟 I Just Pray you at least give him a chance and just see if anything happens or anything changes in ur life, you’ll be Amazed how much ur Eyes, Heart, and Soul will see and Truly feel 🤍✨I tell you, it’s just soo eye opening, Refreshing, and a Breaking Free inner feeling!!! 💫 it’s Truly Amazing, you got nothing to lose Morgan, but Everything to Gain 💝🌟 Praying for You and Everyone who comes across this comment. I Promise, I Normally don’t do this text message thing, but who knows, maybe God gave me the Courage to do it for a reason 🙏😉
Bree Strong
Bree Strong 2 days ago
I feel you dude. I've been stuck in a new state since the pandemic started and have no friends still. I'm super lonely. I'm going to dinner and the movies alone now. It shouldn't be this hard... But maybe just a trial I have to endure to become better. I know you'll prevail, Morgan. You ARE a great person and the universe will always care for you. I send you love , distant friend. Thank you for posting ! Helps fill my void
Sara Dugger
Sara Dugger 2 days ago
I feel this on so many levels. Thank you for sharing. I totally understood everything you said. One thing you said about it it zips it doesn't mean it fits. Yes, I finally excepted that about me. You're beautiful inside and out. Sometimes we just have to talk it out and cry. You did it and you don't realize how you're helping others too with vlogs like these. Thanks 🖤
Chaitali Sarkar
Chaitali Sarkar 2 days ago
I can feel you... It's not easy to go through depression
aola wili
aola wili 2 days ago
“I’m getting rid of things, I have too much clutter” “Should I get a pool for my room?!”
sarah psuedonym
sarah psuedonym 2 days ago
its okay to be not okay when things are fine!! you don't need a bad situation to justify your feelings! it's them chemicals in your brain meat!! reach out!!
sarah psuedonym
sarah psuedonym 2 days ago
for all of you out there with ze mental illness and going to college, get in contact with your disability board and your professors. Even if you can't get a pass from your college, professors are pretty understanding if you just communicate what's up. sincerely, a depressed bitch in a top ten college
aola wili
aola wili 2 days ago
Are you still friends with Trinity?
Rachael Proffitt
Rachael Proffitt 2 days ago
Love you in the red dress!!!!
Ziggy 2 days ago
Its called depression. You need to talk to your doctor honey you may need to get a prescription for medication that will help with that. It could be a chemical imbalance. I understand all to well. I have suffered from this for all to many years. I take a medicine and it had me balanced out now. Smile, it will be all right!!!
Kathleen Devers
Kathleen Devers 2 days ago
Dude this shit never makes sense.. be as honest as you can with your dr. You are NOT stupid at all.. you are so emotionally intelligent and so empathetic and so fucking strong. Also that red dress looked BOMB on you👏🏻👏🏻 the color looks so good w your skin and eyes
Kathleen Devers
Kathleen Devers 2 days ago
I’m thinking about you girl. I hope you’re climbing out of this dark season. I totally get it. The cool thing is that’s you’re aware of this happening and making effort to not sink further into it and to better your life. Also that SoulCycle instructor sounds awful what the fuck is wrong w her??
yvonne armijo
yvonne armijo 2 days ago
Thank you again for being real, open, and honest! living alone with not a clue in the world what you’re doing with your life is so overwhelming. Love watching your videos makes me feel normal!
The Good Americans
Girl get some room Mates and stop being sad and alone. And go to church.
jenna silver
jenna silver 2 days ago
I love you morgan
Sierra Flammond
Sierra Flammond 2 days ago
omg girl you look amazing at breakfast
craig lamping
craig lamping 2 days ago
I love your ability to be open and raw!
Holly McCabe
Holly McCabe 2 days ago
I have never related to something more in my whole life. I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way but you sharing this video helps me ❤️
leah lullaby
leah lullaby 2 days ago
I literally felt the same exact way last week, I’m just now starting to feel better, you ain’t alone, love you!!
Matt Dettling
Matt Dettling 2 days ago
Oh god not another straight white financially privileged girl complaining about her life like anyone actually really cares.
Neressa Partab
Neressa Partab 2 days ago
You are so pretty
Sarah Johnson
Sarah Johnson 2 days ago
Are you still friends with Trinity?
jamie schraeder
jamie schraeder 2 days ago
MORGAN I think you are amazing!! SAME on a lot. You are doing it so well... and by it i mean figuring out life.
I’m literally watching this wearing the Not Average hoodie 🙈🙈🙈
StinkyButton 2 days ago
Soul Cycle IS a cult. Full stop.
doire aintu
doire aintu 2 days ago
Am I missing something...Or what happened to Garret and Andrew? They seem like they would be great friends to lean on during this time.
Anthony Oldfield
Anthony Oldfield 2 days ago
Morgan, you are amazing. I feel like you are overthinking and worried about what other people are thinking. You are beautiful and your personality is attractive. Sending you a hug!
doire aintu
doire aintu 2 days ago
morgan got a dump truck
esmeralda resendiz
My sister has chronic depression and has been pretty close to hurting herself on a few occasions. I think it’s very courageous that you are open about your struggles. My sister has never let us in with her struggles and this was very eye opening for me. Stay strong!
Crimson Blade
Crimson Blade 2 days ago
YOU’RE struggling? Hahahaha. I can barely watch a full US-first video. Too much commitment. Whereas you...you can drag yourself to a cycle class? You can film, upload, edit a video that will make you money? I say congrats to you! 👏
Lyndsey Zamora
Lyndsey Zamora 2 days ago
Omg girl msg me on insta pls lyndsey_zamora I just wanna talk about our problem because damnn I understand youuu🥺🥺
Lyndsey Zamora
Lyndsey Zamora 2 days ago
Omg the laughing when you say something you dont believe😭😭
Lyndsey Zamora
Lyndsey Zamora 2 days ago
Sry I'm just watching ur videos so you gonna see me popping up🥰💜
Lyndsey Zamora
Lyndsey Zamora 2 days ago
You're not alone!!!😩🤣🤣 No fr tho I feel you girl. I be struggling with living for awhillllllle now😤😤😆
Paigon Brookes
Paigon Brookes 2 days ago
There is no right or wrong way to feel. We aren’t supposed to always feel aligned just keep riding the wave and pushing on. As human beings, we are extremely emotional creatures and it’s normal to feel extra sensitive and overwhelmed. It’s ok not to be ok, but its important to speak to others around you so that you can take a step back and look at your situation from someone else’s perspective so that you can visualise ways to move forward differently ❤️
Victoria Castillo
When shopping becomes that hole you fill>>>
Abbie Martin
Abbie Martin 3 days ago
I can not begin to say how much your vlogs on your mental Health had helped me to change my ways and work on my mental health even at 32 I am finally going to the doctors to get help with my anxiety and depression
ilina 3 days ago
morgan, baby, I wish i could be around you, give you few advice on depression battling. I straight up know what you are talking about. And it’s really hard to see such a pure soul struggle so hard🤍
Cass Kost
Cass Kost 3 days ago
You crying while eating breakfast was honestly heart breaking but eye opening for me. Like I’m not the only one who feels like this. Im not the only one who cries randomly and feels so low some days. Im sorry you go through this too. I love your videos and I love how real you are. ❤️
Tash 3 days ago
Alright, so as an aggressive loving friend, I would come over and pack your bags and take you to places that will make you happy. And if I were your friend, I would buy plane tickets to get there and take you to Walmart or something. You are someone who needs to be around people physically and be with someone who vibes with you. I can’t be alone otherwise I will break down. It’s not about being reliant on someone, it’s about growing with someone next to you, lover, partner, or friend- whatever. You need that Morgan, and I hope you can find it.
Jake Kardashian
Jake Kardashian 3 days ago
This was crazy to watch because I've never quite related to a video like this?
dolita windo
dolita windo 3 days ago
literally every different part of this adhd filled video is just literally and unexplainably MY FREAKING LIFE
Erin 3 days ago
I have never related to anything that made me laugh so hysterically before. I feel ya girl!
Morgan L
Morgan L 3 days ago
girly if you don't move back to Colorado I stg
dolita windo
dolita windo 3 days ago
I have never related to someone on this level and just 🥺
Johana Rodriguez
Johana Rodriguez 3 days ago
morgan got a dump truck
Lisa Lynn
Lisa Lynn 3 days ago
Morgan you are brilliant, smart, and gorgeous. And next time tell that lady to "fuck off" dang it!
Samantha Calvillo
Morgan, thank you so much for your vulnerability. This video made me cry because it made me feel seen and me feel hope. Praying for your peace and happiness. Thank you for your unmatched magic that you give this world and this platform. ♥️
Karlee Mihailov
Karlee Mihailov 3 days ago
Morgan you are a force to be reckoned with! So incredible, funny, kind, strong. Keep doing you girl!
Madison Brown
Madison Brown 3 days ago
Sis just move back to the 303 and be my best friend already! You’re incredible and you’re so valid for your feelings. I know things will turn around for the best. Keep pushing baby girl you’re doing great💕
K D 3 days ago
erin nicole
erin nicole 3 days ago
Morgan, you are amazing and you are enough. Please keep doing these raw videos, you are so special and help me through my tough moments. ❤️
K D 3 days ago
I feel this in so many ways. This is me literally every day trying to get through life. It’s nice seeing big-time creators showing real emotions like real people.
Really Though
Really Though 3 days ago
Jesus is the way and life will never be the same in the best way :)
asap.kates 3 days ago
ill be your bestie morgan lets facetime
Alicia U.
Alicia U. 3 days ago
im glad i watched this after i was having a depressive episode or something along those lines, definitely makes me feel less alone
Sydney Macoretta ♡
the fact that all of those sunglasses looked so good on you haha, i feel like none look nice on me i'm jealous!!
Nora H
Nora H 3 days ago
Something that really helped me when I used to feel really numb is practicing gratitude. I would write 10 things I am grateful for each morning in detail for 28 days (takes 24 days to form a new habit). It's hard to do it when you are in that state but if you push through, it will change your life for the better. I didn't feel numb after the 28 days were over! I also started recently doing Qigong 10 minutes every day , it's a gentle form of martial arts (kind of like Tai Chi) it's amazing for moving stagnant energy, helps with depression and sleep! Think Vitality with Jeffery Chand is a great youtube channel for learning Qigong!
Hannah Makes It
Hannah Makes It 3 days ago
Something that has helped me post moving cross country and leaving my entire life and having no friends was figuring out my love language and doing things that fulfill that for me. My top love language was acts of service so self care, cleaning, organizing, yoga and baking/cooking are things that help me feel better. My other love language is quality time, so forcing my self to date myself and go on picnics alone, hikes, reading even though i'm not a reader lolololol I'm liking the book "what I was doing while you were breeding" by Kristin newman.
Hannah Makes It
Hannah Makes It 3 days ago
also come move to Portland, we can be friends
Ray1506 3 days ago
I have never related to someone on this level and just 🥺
Alicia 3 days ago
Morgan- I know how you feel... I have struggled for a long time to feel happiness. Stay strong Girl.
Sylvia Claire
Sylvia Claire 3 days ago
Can we be friends and have mental breakdowns together 🥺👉👈 ❤️
Kimberly Quinn
Kimberly Quinn 3 days ago
Thank you, thank you, thank you, for posting a video that can sum up exactly how I feel. I always feel so close to you, because I can tell we feel the same way about life. By you being strong and brave enough to post this, you are helping others like myself that is working on these mental issues as well, that we’re not alone. Bless your heart, thank you for making a video that I can share with others, that might be struggling to understand why we tend to feel this way, and what it’s like. I was literally already sitting here feeling like this, when I started catching up on your videos. ❤️🙏🏻
No need for gd.